Nature Might Have Been Cruel
Before we are even self-aware, we are dressed in the weighted ego of those who conceived us and entrusted with the burden of their plight.
Expected to forever look up, smiling politely at all the destruction and mess that we are faced with.
As my eyes recklessly glared at the chaos that should have perturbed me.
It occurred to me that this role was owed to those who passed before me.
The self-centred creators of the lost.
Lost child, speak your mind.
The celestial bodies watched you grow and make a trail to an abstract home in the fray.
Unexpectedly you found yourself in a dysfunctional shelter for all strays.
And finally became a prey for the kindred of troubled and lost souls alike.
How could you have known that an orphan heart would inevitably produce and attract its kind?
Indulgent, self preserving and only ever attracted to things they shouldn’t have.
When the voice of light whispered to you the path to truth.
You grabbed on to it, but only because of what it could do for you.
Orphan, could you not see that walking the path of freedom could not be a selfish act?
Pain, shame and fear took you off track.
But lack of insight could be your downfall.
Your shallow sight cannot reveal your blind spots.
The fray, the strays and lost souls took your senses in awe, and dashed them against the pillar of cloud who was also your rock.
Lost child search your mind.
Nature might have been cruel, but pride will make you go blind.
As you are, you cannot save a life.
Sadly the belief that you have preserved yourself is but a lie.
The only thing safeguarded is the immortality of your insecurities and your ensured servitude to it.
You can only live as it permits you, and so will your kin.
The simple truth is, you can get away from the fray, the home for all strays and from under the power and influence of the troubled and lost souls. To do so you must reach for the hand that reaches towards you.
The difficult truth is that you have no choice but to.
Otherwise, you will remain a lost child, even until your very last breath.
Wake up.
The terrifying idea of breaking vicious cycles
I started working on this sketch in 2019. Of all the 33 sketches in the black sketchbook, it has the longest life span in terms of the time measured from start and finish. I think it took me so long to complete it because at the start of its life, I lacked the vision and emotional maturity to carry the message to fruition. The written piece is loaded and hefty enough to decode the sketch, so I think it is not worth writing a breakdown of my thoughts and delving into what inspired the art piece. But in short, it speaks on the notion of breaking vicious cycles and negative generational patterns.
I realise that this is a weighty topic so, if anyone needs to talk or would like a listening ear feel free to message me on tiktok: @toraamanning and I shall try my very best to get back to you.